My family is going through a very hard time, I know we are all having rough times with all the stuff going on. On top of all that stuff we lost our beautiful twin girls, (20 months old) our hearts are broke it seems beyond repair, and I am trying to help our two other daughters and husband. But today I just want to scream and cry and stay in bed. Our oldest says either God hates her or there is no God. If He was real and loved her as she has been taught her baby sisters would still be here with her. I tried to talk to her but it is so hard when I cant make sense of it myself.